Is it the time to take the blame
Or try and keep you in the game
With false reaction, no attraction
Take some pills and walk away

You're feeling secretly denied
No one's remaining by your side
Whispers crashing, you feel like smashing
Your face against the floor again

Don't know how many moods you've faked
But how much more is there to take
And no distraction, no direction
There's just nowhere left to go

And it hurts so bad
It's a life I never wanted!
Under the golden layers, concealed from you to see
'Cause it hurts so bad
It's a life I never wanted!
I never wanted it to end (like this)

Tired of losing anyway
It never matters what you say
And all rejection and disconnection
It doesn't even make it worse
For now all morbid fear is gone
The fighting ends, you accept they've won
And all the pressure and all displeasure
Leaves you here in your own void

I say it was luck
And then you say they're corrupt
I guess it's not so important
I think we're just spoilt
Always feeling annoyed
I guess it's not so important
You thought they were drunk
I say that everyone's junk
I guess it's not so important
Perhaps I'm just mean
Those people sober and clean
But it seems not so important

Nothing better to do
They feel like one of the few
I guess they're not so important
You know you are screwed
Tear up all bills overdue
All this is not so important

For sure the wall comes crashing down
When I hide behind it
I choke on words and face my fears in vain
And everything that's still undone,
I will leave it to you
I just don't think hope's killing me again

You say everyone ducks
Then I say everyone sucks
I guess it's not so important
And all they confess,
They never cleaned up their mess
I guess it's not so important
Bend the truth till it cracks
Confuse opinion with facts
They think that's not so important
But I can't hear this no more
I feel so tired and sore
But well, they're not so important

I'm not so important, you're not so important
They're not so important, we're not so important

So I hear all those words coming out of their mouths
And they pass above
And you say I was always right
But I know you're wrong
I couldn't feel guilty this time
And I've lost most of my empathy
I never wondered why all
Their ambition felt so strange

And then I go
And I fall

This is my life, but why must I
Disagree about anything
And because rules do not apply
I disagree about anything
With no more lies to identify
I could be free of everything
I don't seek out best replies
Just disagree about anything

And I'm forced by some hands
That keep me down under the waterline
I can't see 'cause it's dark
And I only can breathe out
And I'll never know what it takes
To remain inside my comfort zone
I'm afraid I'll forget how it feels
To be strong and safe and sure

It's a dead end, I'm freezing
I won't complain, I'm ceasing
To trouble everybody around me
I'll just let it go
I'm frequently failing
Never wasted time prevailing
Over someone I don't care for,
I just can't unfuck my life at all

I'm flying, you're screaming, trying to stem the bleeding
Just further, without comments, and this generation ends
I'm hollow, you're leaving, I can't improve the meaning
Go higher without defence, and this generation ends

It's a dead end, I'm burning
Disillusion beats the yearning
Could be deaf or just not listening
Would you see a difference anyway?
Have you found some explanation
Or did you end up in frustration
Just like myself? Made me realise
That I can't unfuck this world at all

Oh, what a mess, and nothing more to come
We've wasted all the time we've had with wasting all our time
And all I know… the worthlessness I've felt
We'll spill that last drink, 'cause that's what we do

Are you turning into someone
That you don't want to become
But you look at yourself in the mirror
From the corner at the back
You're being plagued by your own demons
'Cause they won't leave you alone
No matter what you're gonna try out
They will always play their part

You keep breathing
What if there's more you could believe in
For now it's only flaws
You keep breathing
You just can't find a higher meaning
'Cause it's only flaws

And you wake up every morning
And your thoughts drift back in time
When you're in this classroom
Education is the key to a happier life, they said
And you followed their instructions
But they never seemed to work for you
It was pointless, no one noticed
That you came apart, but still

It's hard to understand why everybody knows
But nobody reacts
Like we're not doomed. But hey, we are!
You know it's like to speak but never say a word
But wait! That's just what we do best
And running out of time is all we seem to do
It looks like we deserve what's to come
So let's just close our eyes, let's just close our eyes
And pretend there's nothing wrong
Nothing's wrong

No plan and no idea, so we're just moving on
'Cause we don't wanna lose what we've achieved
While we were celebrating our descent
So let's just close our eyes

We know it's coming, there's still time for our regrets
Let's try to find someone and make them pay our debts
Because we're broke
We're just too busy finding out what to expect
Go and get something out of this and have all boxes checked

There's always someone who denies
And says it's not too bad
Let's just keep going on and on and on
Our comfy little lives come first
And then it's us again, again
No need to look around and see
What we have done by now
Sit down, relax and just enjoy the show
It's gonna be the last!
Why don't we close our eyes?
Let's just close our eyes and pretend there's nothing wrong
Nothing's wrong

“There's really nothing we can do”
“What difference do I make?”
“And what we've all been through…
Too tough, you know?”
It's all about myself. My comfy little life
Come on, let's close our eyes!

Missed the chances once again
Everybody looks the same, quite insane
A couple of drinks too much, I guess
Still there's nothing to confess, it's easier to suppress

There's only right or wrong
Just follow the truth that you own alone
Give away what you've been fighting for
You discovered the clue, it's never been you

Together you fall, together you crawl
It's never been you
Together you fall, together too small

Just repeating what you've heard,
You're the one to spread the word, it's so absurd
If you're screaming loud enough
People think you're really tough, oh, and rough

All the noise you've made… It's just for the slow,
You've ended up low
Beyond what I define as regular,
But you discovered the clue
It's never been you

Together you fall, together you crawl
It's never been you
Together you fall, together too small
And all the things that no longer matter
You just divide into black and white
Loved by the brainless, you're pretty flattered
I know after all, your dick is too small

I've heard enough of all your bullshit
I've seen too much of all you pathetic fools
You can't be wrong if they're cheering for you
'Cause you know it's true
And the voices in your head got numb
You discovered the clue it's never been you

I'm cold and dead inside,
I don't want to know what I already know
I can't stand this stupidity
Yes, I blame you for this hell
Fuck you, you're not enough
Just tricking the fools and playing tough
Fuck you, just shout it out
'Cause you don't understand

'Cause everything's sad and unbearable,
I won't let you go
For all you've done and the things you've said,
I won't let you go
If you find an escape, I'll be in your way,
I won't let you go
And the games you've played, now it's too late,
I won't let you get away with it

What's left behind your eyes
The loudest lie still won't be the truth
I don't get how anyone can fall
For the hatred and all the shit you talk
Fuck you, I've had enough
Of what you say and what you really mean
Fuck you, just bark it out
I guess you don't understand!

Gimme something for my headache
To survive another daybreak
All the restless and the important
All the freaks and the creeps and the distorted
Invitations, first world problems
Regulation, brainless comments
Separation for good reason
It's enough, it's enough, it's enough, it's…

No good time
To try my nerves
If you want lies
Skip me today
It's no good time
To play these games
It's just that I don't care and I don't want to explain

Pointless chatting in the restroom
One opinion and a costume
Never listening or accepting
And you don't understand what's been happening
Think I'm done with faking interest
Like your whining is a contest
Too much torture to keep you going
It's enough, it's enough, it's enough, it's…

Like the water creates all the twists in your face
When reflections show in an infinite flow
And it covers your tears, makes you bury the fears
When you tried to fight, and stayed away from the light

And those mistakes you never made
How could you know the price you paid
And you realised there's nobody here
Who would reach out their hands for you, and

You were already lost before you could escape it, at least face it
You were already lost before you could make it go away

When it's silent it's safe, never wished to be brave
It's hard to understand when nothing ever goes as planned
If there was anyone left it could be worth getting dressed
But why should you care, it's all too screwed up to repair

And all the words you tried to fake
Those hurtful thoughts you couldn't take, so
You socialised to no avail
And no one found out you disappeared, 'cause…

You were already lost before you could escape it, at least face it
You were already lost before you could make it go away
If there was more than this emptiness waiting for you,
You'd fake it or take it slow
But you've already been lost before you
Knew you'd break apart

Are you gone – now?
Are you done – how?
They just ran out on you

You don't see me when I merge into the background
Even if I always stand right next to you
How does it feel for you?
How good does it feel for you?

You don't hear me when I scream amongst other noises
Even if I try to be as loud as I can
How does it feel for you?
How good does life feel for you again?

You don't feel me when I stand so close to your back
You don't notice when I follow in your track
How good does it feel for you?
Tell me, how does it feel for you?

Sometimes you try and sometimes you don't
You never ask why and I know you won't ever look at yourself
'Cause there's nothing you would see

Got other plans today
It's not so complicated
Just don't mind if I fail to ask you to stay
There's nothing left to say
We just never correlated
I just really need to take off the weight

You don't fear me when you look me in the eye now
Even if you're aware of the knife in my hand
So, how does it feel for you?
Tell me, how does life feel for you?

Sometimes you lie and sometimes you don't
You never know why and I'm sure you won't ever look at yourself
'Cause there's nothing you would see

You got used to clear the way
To remain unseen and just obey
Try to forget all the hurt
'Cause that's all there ever was
As if your hands are tied up for good
You don't even feel misunderstood
And you still ask
If there's one thing you really want

And you dream yourself away from all that mess
What if you just stayed free of the useless weight

And you're still waiting for the day
When there's some colour in the grey
And most of your thoughts will be okay
But it all seems beyond reach

And you still feel invisible
Which makes you even more miserable
Only another pill gives you sleep to stop your mind
You still believe your time will come
Things you've missed out become undone
You must know it's too late because time is running out

And dreams now fade
And all you know
Is that you never can be free of the useless weight

Why can't you just leave me alone, I don't wanna talk
I wanna sit on my own, I don't wanna walk
Don't wanna laugh and smile and dance
Don't wanna take a glance now
Why don't you see that I won't pretend to be someone
I couldn't even spend a minute with
It seems I don't fit in your perfect world

And you say you'd understand
But you cannot see
The writing in the sand, long worn away

You're not the one I wanna cry for
You're not the one I wanna die for
You wanna run, but I don't see why
For you it's begun, but I don't have time for this

Why don't you talk to someone else,
I just wanna listen to my silence instead
And nothing would glisten
I'm tired of approval and feigned consent
Losing another fight
What if you change and what if you don't
What if we were strangers and what if we weren't
What if you would see yourself the way you see me

And you say you'd understand
But you cannot see
The writing in the sand, long worn away

I don't have time for this
No time for this